18 years of fucking life.

Heilowz, i'm finally 18.

awesome celebration, not much to elaborate cept that i was dead drunk when i was at Zirca _|_


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Holidays here. BYEBYE SHORTIE . I HATE YOU . i told you before, i know what i want.

I'm never happy _|_

I have endless things to complain about. But for once, I will try not too, really.

Did I mention that I went over to Genting with my family during the end of October? It was really good, like a break for me and my family. A break from the cruel, sickening and demanding world. Me and Mom went clubbing together and she paid for my drinks. LOLOLOLOL.


my stout, her corona.

look at the mist :







Magnificent.


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I miss PartyWorld times. Too bad, many things changed.




will keep this. ^^

might be heading over to Partyworld next week with becca.


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I think I've been kind enough for a very long time now. I really tried to be nice.



it is not far if you say I'm not nice.


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don ng.


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I need to change my blog link soon. I hate it when people whom I don't like read my blog. I'm feeling kinda good today, it is so important to have quiet times.

Life is getting mundane. Gotta do something about it after i'm done with resting.

It's Don Ng's Birthday today.

I'm in school now. Classes end already , waiting for rebecca as usual. I stopped blogging for a month now. Have been busy. Busy having fun and busy being in school. I won't say much about my new classmates. Cause I realised I don't care so much anymore. BORING PEOPLE.

So I got a Bakerzin oreo cheesecake for Don Ng. And did something for him. Yeah, he looked happy.

Rebecca came over to my house last night, ton till 5:30am in the morning then she went home to get things done. Came school after bathing and all. TIRED. But we know that, that $30 is well-spent, right rebecca? <3

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Chiong PartyWorld two weeks back. Gonna upload only some of the photos, theres too many. LOL












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Cousin's 21st Birthday




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tired, blog soon again.

School Sucks Big Time

So many occasions but keep forgetting what i've been doing these days. Basically just busy getting drunk everyday. And neglecting a whole lot of people. So i had the class chalet. It was PRETTY OKAY. Wont elaborate on what happened.

Then it was my Mummy's Birthday on Sept 18. HAPPY BELATED MUMMY. LOVE YOU.

And then it was drinking everyday.

cant remember which day came first. but gonna upload all together.


yanling


quanwei


me and jiahua






lots of photos. really too lazy to upload.


and then it's KENNY'S BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. :D sept 30. went to v3 at boatquay with all of them.LOL





































































blog till here first. tired sia. ftw.

Leave It All Behind.

I know you have my blog. I know you're reading it. I'm not stupid at all. YOU, lack of social skills. You don't know how to make people around you feel comfortable thats why you are constantly BOYCOTTED by many. (Y) I hope you realise this someday. We have been very accepting towarrds you.


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Fine line seperating jealousy and purely looking down on people. Ever been in a situation where you were thinking that some people are losers and they should vanish from here? BUT end up being told that you're just purely jealous? I have been. I have nothing to feel jealous about. I have a much fulfilling life, i go back home every night knowing that i've had fun. I've seen more than you. I've felt so much more than you. Heck, i even have more friends than you.

And you don't even know that everyone around you DO NOT like you. I look down on you for trying so hard but never being able to get things done and right. I look down on you cause you're forever living in self denial. I look down on you cause none of the people you THOUGHT liked you as a friend , likes you. Go do some self reflection.

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seletar country club. with yanling, quanwei, zhe en, jiahua and jm.


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BYE !! OFF TO PSP.

I don't understand myself.

I find it so hard to tell the truth recently. I know what's bothering me but why can't i tell the truth?

I need explanations. I need answers. I need enlightment. I need stern people around me. I need people who are more certain in things than I am. I'm tired of living around people who are constantly insecure. Because I am.

I am really in need of a person who is so much more knowledgable than i am, who can assure me in many things. Who is able to teach me what is right/wrong or if the things i'm doing are those that i should be doing. I'm sick of assuring others. I'm sick of responsibilites.

When i'm angry , i'm told by my friends to laugh. When i'm sad, im told to laugh. When i feel lost, they say laughter is the best medicine. Why can't someone just sit down with me and tell me the answers to my questions. Or tell me why i'm feeling the way i'm feeling.


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At least i'm lucky enough to have Rebecca to be there no matter what. Just that sometimes she just can't find the answers to my questions. But what is important is that both of us don't find the silent moments, awkard. It takes alot to be able to feel like yourself still, even when silent moments occurs. Or to be able to understand that your friend needs some time. I'm a weird person. And i couldn't thank Rebecca more for being able to understand someone like me.

Groggy.

It's 1:45am now. For the past two days have been working in Club Romeo(a thai tranny club) from 9pm to 3am with Yanling and Elvin Sia. It was a fun experience altogther but a really tiring one. Made friends with a few trannies, nice people.













It was hell for me and the people around me for these two days. Many responsibilities i can't bear, the inability to allow any one beside me to feel secure. I don't know how to apologise to these people(inclusive of family). They have never ever blamed me for not being there and tried to understand. I've really neglected people around me for quite some time now.




Rebecca has been slogging like a bull for the past three days at some Nike shitzzz. Poor girl gotta stand for more than 12 hours with her not functioning well leg. It's okay, i'm getting to see you tmr already! I KNOW YOU MISSED ME SO MUCH COS I MISSED YOU TWO. thank you for chatting with me when i was having my break during work and being so tolerant when i was ranting about little insignificant stuffs <3 you manymany


months back. sorry i had to post this rebecca. I find this extremely hilarious. please dont stop loving me after seeing this.

Life has been kind. Wallet is getting fatter after all the tips. Mummy gave me a really huge present, <3. Life has been kind and i couldn't be more thankful.

















Without school life is MAYBE abit better. Cause there's time for everything. Lesser worries, lesser everything. But also lesser time to meet up with school people, pretty sad but i guess things are getting better now that i've gotten used to it.

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Jaimond at Granny's place













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will update again. byebyepeeposssssxz